yay! exams over! I'm damn happy! but I seriously don't know what to do lor what the hell I slacked for like 3 weeks like a walking dead. but hey beijing is waiting for me! off to beijing on 30th October. shiok parents not coming I really can play like mad haha!

phew...30hours and finally I'm back. things were no good for me competition-wise, I won 1 out of 5 games, that was totally shit. maybe I was too nervous or something, or maybe I wanted to win just too much. well...I still have next year to work for and I am definitely gonna avenge myself. but this trip was really terrific! Victoria is a beautiful city. those hanging baskets are really something, I really wished I could bring one of them back for myself. it was comical when I tried to communicate with the japanese guy. he's really friendly, but he doesn't understand english, so I had to talk jap to him. *I asked some other friends how to say it before talking to him. when those friends are not around I try and write the words in kanji and show to him... well it was very inefficient communicating but managed to get the message across...

half a year since I last wrote crap...well...was being slacky but HEY going Canada next monday I am so HAPPY I really have no idea if I will be thrashed like shit by representatives from other countries. but who cares, if I lose I have all my brothers to cray with me =P
my stupid phone larh sent for service then lost all my numbers *I backed them up but still lost now I have strangers calling and sending me messages....sad case -.-"

yay! what a new year ahead of me! (come on, don't sound so -.-", you can do better than that dude)
there are so many dreams up there for me to realise, I see no reason why I should be aimless and bored. ^.^
but there are also things I need to take note of. I do too much things (if you know what I mean). whenever I see something in which I am interested, I just take it up without even considering whether there will be enough time for me to develop on it. then in time I would neglect a bit here and there. now that is veyr irresponsible, I need to review on that, there is no reason why I should neglect any one of them. but it seems that I can't really perform ultra well in everything I do. when I take something up, it's not easy for me to put it down, I really am tired sometimes but there's always a day when I settle all my stuff and breathe in air that's fresh and refreshing! always remember this quote, "In a warrior's code, there's no surrender. Though his boday says 'stop', his spirit cries 'never'!"

*to the world of weiqi
*to the world of electronics
*to the world of journalism
*to the world bodybuilding
*to the world of PASSION!!!


p.s. this is easier said than done -.-" -.-" -.-"

heyz...the school holidays are starting, I'm gonna make full use of it for my career.
first of all, I plan to make more trips to the gym. set new targets: to be part of Team Singapore and to become an IFBB pro
there is no time to waste for weiqi, most probably it'll be my turn playing for singapore next year, there must be some standard in me so that I won't lose too badly to other countries
I still don't get it...what is the use of running on body-building? lol...gotta ask professional peoople to find out why

If I call it an urge to cry, I would have shed my tears long time ago. But, that isn't exactly what I feel. Life isn't aimless, life isn't a failure for me...but what on earth is it that has been troubling me? I don't know, I don't think I understand myself now. It's been a long time since I last felt the dread of waking up the next day. Well...let's not call it dread, let's call it laze. Lazy to wake up the next day. What the HELL!

I wish to torture myself now...that would make me feel pain and wake up. Yes, there are pals and friends who cheer me up when we spend time together, but my mood goes haywire once I am alone. Argh...and the number of tests I had for last week and going to have to this week is SHIT. I've lost the satisfaction I used to have when I do things...I've lost the courage to tackle things that seem impossible...I've lost the ambition for the unachievable...I've lost my passion for tomorrow.......... -_-""

In a situation like this, the saviour of the world is myself. I know it, but I don't know how to save myself. The exams are drawing close, I don't wanna fall here. I don't wanna die in this place.

lol...I am gonna buy a chin-up bar and install it right in my room...damn I'm shocked...I can't do chin-ups nowadays...:'( too slack liao larh...or is it because I am too heavy? :S lol I am 74kg now lor...2months ago I was 69kg *yikes* cannot gain liao larh

whew...another tiring day for me. today I've set my mind to be disciplined, because I want to be a commando...=S this friday, something for a change. I am not going to the gym this friday, I would be going swimming. yay! swimming rules. need to train cardio and then shun bian tan myself a bit...

haiz...very sian exams coming, can't get into the exams mood (damn it)...oh well, I've made my decision recently about future career in NS. I shall be a commando or guard...abit lame yeah I know, talking about NS when I am only Sec 2..but hmm...commando had always been what I admire because of the training they have and their duty.
erh...I know it is not easy to get in, in fact extremely difficult =S. but never mind, I've got 4 years from now to buck up my fitness. wonder if there is an open house or something so that I can test out in the SOC to see how much I lag

grrr...damn tired today...I really miss the days when I can be energetic :S this stupid headache is killing me. whaliao still owe my teacher one chinese descriptive writing...trust me, I really don't wanna do it. maybe I shall go gym again tmr night, but it all depends on how I feel tmr, maybe I would be too worn out to go... haiz...nowadays I like walking dead, every day dunno go school for wad, fell like dying :(

went to gym last friday night...really good session for me, but there were too many men :S. no joke leh all their arms larger than my thigh...TMD. so slack nowadays it's been dunno how many days liao since I last did push-ups...stop slacking larh buck up wake up and build up!!!

yay...today you did me proud again by breaking your personal record set yesterday...what can I say...I AM PROUD OF YOU!!! ^_^ so...it is right to say that you would definitely break the new reocord again tml? :P cheers* don't worry larh just relac you are very pro already(hey! 260 push-ups in one day is no child's play ok?)...just remember: There's no easy way out! haha that one is copied from sylvester stallone's movie lor

Xiao Tian is leaving for Liverpool really soon...he had been a good company over the past 2 years...he has never failed to lighten me up with hope when I feel down...now that he is leaving, I sorta feel sad...but nvm...Xiao Tian would be doing much better in Liverpool than here, DON'T YOU BE SELFISH!! alright...bon voyage Xiao Tian...I would always remember you as a great friend ;)